I went for a walk the other day (down the path you see in the picture above)—and took my verse cards with me. I’ve been trying to memorize Psalm 13. It’s a short prayer of David, a prayer that he prayed when he felt defeated. I was going through some things too. So I said to myself, “I’m gonna use this prayer. I’m gonna make it my own.” Here’s kind of the way I prayed, using David’s words—first reading a section of his prayer and then making it my own prayer.
How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever?
How long will You hide Your face from me?
Lord, I know I’m not going through what David went through, but I’ve got problems too. You know my problems. You know what I’m going through, but I don’t sense that you are hearing me.
2 How long shall I take counsel in my soul,
Having sorrow in my heart daily?
How long will my enemy be exalted over me?
Lord, You know the agony I’ve been going through. You know the struggle I’m having with my situation. I have not gotten any wisdom from you to gain the answer. And I sense the demons all around me are laughing at me. I’m starting to feel defeated.
3 Consider and hear me, O Lord my God;
Enlighten my eyes,
Lest I sleep the sleep of death;
4 Lest my enemy say,
“I have prevailed against him”;
Lest those who trouble me rejoice when I am moved.
Yes, hear me God, my Lord. Understand my dilemma. Please give me some hope so I don’t feel so depressed, so those horrible demons around me won’t any longer laugh and rejoice at my defeat.
5 But I have trusted in Your mercy;
My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.
6 I will sing to the Lord,
Because He has dealt bountifully with me.
Lord, you know how I have in the past trusted in your mercy. And I do now too. Even as I feel defeated I trust that you will give me mercy and will deliver me from my sense of defeat.
Lord, as David chose to sing to you, I choose now to sing to you too, and praise you for whatever you decide to do. You have always been kind and fair to me, so I know that you will hear and answer my prayers. I thank and praise you for your everlasting love and kindness. You have always known how to help me and I trust that you will deliver me and show mw you unfailing love in the time of your choosing. Amen.
Well, that’s kind of how the prayer went. In a post coming up I will share with you some of the details of what I was going through and how God mercifully answered my prayer.